Hi baby boy im sure having a hard time with the holidays here my family isnt complete without you. im doing the best i can, i sure wish you were with us this would have been your first Christmass but i know you have all you ever wanted in Heaven. Oh gosh baby this is so hard for me please watch over me and give me strength. Merry Christmass my son i will miss you oh so very much im going by your grave today and putting your Christmass outfit on you. i love you baby and i dont know how im going to do but im going to do my best for you. Love mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxo i miss you