Hi my precious baby,today was the day i found you lifeless and not waking up it has been one year WOW mommy cant believeit,it seems like it was yesterday this day was sad for me and hard. I got up early with daddy and we came to your grave side daddy stayed for awhile because he had to work. Mommy stayed with you all day and cried and wanted to hold you. Words can not express the pain i feel i never thought i would have to be remembering at your grave or for your death date. O my son where dose the time go i still remember it like yesterday to hold you and bathe you and love you and bang like that im holding you from a casket why i will never understand why your gone. I love you i miss you. Gosh i will never forget the worst day of my life to find you dead in the bed. O my gosh my baby my baby i prayed just wake up my baby, i couldnt except it i couldnt save my baby God i said please not my baby take me. I waited for the phone call from the korner to say come get your son but never recieved it. I place my hand on your chest in the casket and prayed God raise my baby from the dead, and didnt recieve it. Why i will never know but i believed i had the faith in God and you still were gone. I will hold you again my son forever and ever my heart is with you i miss you beyond actions beyond words my heart hurts my soul cries my mind goes crazy but yet mommy still tries. I love you my prince tell Jesus that your mommy says please hold me extra tight tonight. xoxoxoxoxo my son (bubbas)