Hi my son happy birthday baby boy i miss you so much. I hope your having a huge party up in heaven and get tons of gifts. I went to your grave and put cars and toys on it for you. O this is so hard for me baby you would be two today getting so big. Your big sissy ( Abby) says to me that i have to call bubbas up in heaven mommy and tell him happy birthday. Shes been singing happy birthday to you all day its so precious she told me mommy bubbas has to come and eat his cake. Nana is cooking a nice dinner to remeber you bye, and she made you a birthday cake with your sissys and mommy we sure do miss your sweet face. Please send your love to me to comfort me i have been depressed alot lately missing you this is a very difficult time for me. I love you so much my son you are my little angel always. You will always be in my heart and mind i think about you all the time. the pain never goes away its just something im trying to face that i still to this day dont want to accept your gone from me. You were my first boy i was so happy to have you and i dont regret it at all, even if i new you were going to go to heaven i would still have had you i was blessed two beautiful months with you here with me. And im glad i got to hold you and love you i wouldnt change anything about you, you were perfect in every way. Im hurting so badly for you missing you. Me and Daddy play ball at your grave wishing you were here to play with us, but i know your looking down over us praying for us thank you keep praying for us we need it. I cant believe you would have been two today wow were does the time go it seems just like yesterday you were here and now i have to face everyday without you which is hard baby i want to hold you and kiss you and never let you go. I will see you again when my time on earth is through i will come join you and play with my boy. O my heart hurts hunny i love you so much and miss you i cant even describe how much i miss you. Daddy loves you and sang happy birthday to you at your grave daddy dont like to come on your site much he gets to sad. But he loves you and says he cant wait for the day he gets to play football with you in heaven. I never thought i would loss you its so difficult to face your in heaven. I still think im in a bad dream and want to wake up. But just know i love you and miss you always and happy birthday my angel. I could go on on talking to you but i get real sad and start to cry so im gonna go i love you mwah big hugs xoxoxoxoxo love mommy